Trust

Lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil. 

For Thine is the Kingdom and the Power and the Glory forever and ever. 

 i am tempted to give in, to give up, to give excuse for giving less than what i am able. 

 i am able to do so much and be even more, all because of how You have created me. 

 Lead me within Your Kingdom, equipped with Power, created to bring You Glory.

thank You Jurnei!

still excited

some how, Jurnei, i'll get through.  i will get to You.  i know You are here with me, in me, around me, yet, i smagrin, ambulo.  my foot curls up still.  whether there is interest from the outside, i know You are not just interested in what i am doing on this, or where i am going, but You are planning this.

i still don't know, i have no clue, what this is gonna be about.  i don't want to keep wondering either because than it is almost a "set up", a set up to something BIG when maybe, it doesn't need to be.  i don't think it does.  Jurnei, i'll be serious, ever since 4/26/98, i don't feel important.  i feel as if i was a set up for something BIG and obviously, it was not.  i am not.

so i am going to just go GO and try to help people, others, feel and know that they ARE big to You, no matter how small and insignificant this world causes them to feel.  it sure happens!

but i believe, Jurnei, this is an easy task by simple utter enjoyment for Life.  not for what life brings me and others, but for what i can bring Life.  You Jurnei are Life!  and i just want to bring You my recognition, appraisal, reverence, joy and love.

i am stifled here.  my joy is shadowed and over shadowed even more.  my joy is even questioned.  not by You, though.

3+

JURNEI!!

in a little over, A LITTLE OVER, 3 months my travel begins!

i have already run into encouragers, who some might say "stranger" because i have never really met them before.  but were and ARE they ever so encouraging!

You placed them there at that exact time, to stifle any trepidation in me.

Thank You Jurnei!

i must be composed.  i must have clarity.  i must be ready.  just looking at my packing list, which was helped by You, it doesn't seem to full.  that is good.

OH!!!  thank you for the encouragers!

may i continue to find rest these coming nights.  NO FEAR.  this perfect love is musical.  this perfect love is orchestrated by You.

Jurnei, as i prepare the packing list, prepare my heart too, please.  and my mind.  and my body.

ambulo.

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latria Trinity!!!

clapping and clapping

open the door please

Thank You, Jurnei, for blessing me with so much talent and adorning me with such gifts.  Beautiful.

I will never ask for more or return what's provided, so that I gain less.

The enormous amount of blessings is overwhelming (diction, voi, joi, hummm, refrain, coda).

To the “rule”, I am over qualified, an acception of giftedness.

To the all knowing leaders, by gnosis, I am over-annointed knowing too much,
having seen too much,
having heard too much,
having learned to much,
having been given too much,
and sharing too much.

I have been enducted in Your presence.
Endowed since before conception.
Instructed by Your Spirit.
Enlightened from the overSeerz.
But not enabled by the underscored.  The undersurfaced.  The undersourced.
To all them, I am under scrutiny.  And they wedge, in me, refrain.

Please Jurnei, bring forth, to me, the means to make use of what You've equipped me with:
Boldness for justice.
Tenderness for mercy.
Diction to savor.

Sounds that sharpen while in key.

I do not wield Your Sword and Armor for vanity's sake, yet, if I just continue to stand my ground bearing it, am I vain unto the public?  To the peer?  To the poor?  To the proud?

Help me to stand and stand firm in honor.

Integrity is shielded within the crown of my temple.

And may the presence of death never inject, in me, malice or it's seed of intent and may our holy places never be numbed with indifference.

I faithfully request this with humility.

Please show me where this path begins.

Latria Jurnei …....

3d

Jurnei

3 wake ups.

3 wrestles.

3 in a row.

i will seek counsel for the 3 nightmares i had.

6-26-14: my falling sliced off head in slow motion but on my face i am smiling with the back ground swirling artistically.

6-27-14: pushed or jumped off a bridge as if being hanged by a noose.  night.  no rain.  no wind.  no conversation.

6-28-14: wake up stabbed in head.  but still able to walk around and converse.

hmmmmmmmm ..........

jurnei please heal my mind from this.  i feel not anxiety but slight trepidation.