blind

Jurnei,

my eyes want to smile.  tiresome they crawl.  they try to roll open and stay.

my head rolls one way and then another and then again the same.

beneath my eyes, that see no definitive movements or stances,

is a clear solid ground that i stand upon.

i do thank You that i am not swamped.

that i am not crushed.

that i am not pressed anymore.

i am still persecuted by the figments though.

i am on this open open open road with no Three but You.

Your music draws me closer and mine as well.

Our words, our reflections from each other will be for each other.

For no one else.

helpful They may be, but the choice to be positive and stay positive remains theirs.

and mine.

and You,

are.

i have always seen that about You . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .



eye smagrin

Trenches

Jurnei,

I still feel very much in the trenches.

Maybe by my own staying?

I come out every once in a while, but I feel protected from the bombardement of "no one really likes you"!!

But, I trust You do, Jurnei.

I don't know how You or how I allow You to get me to be amongst the living?

Am I one of they?

Insertions of significance come every now and then.  But placebo like they feel.  Uppers.

Falling victim to any belief is draining, sleeping me awake.

Jurnei, when I was with You, I knew my importance.  Here, it is fleeting.  And fading.

Sure, it fades to Starlight, but so far reaching away from my grasp it becomes.

I wish I could fly there, too.

Maybe tonight?

aze

an absolutely awesome amazing amounted afternoon assembled across affirmations after affirmations announced as agreements and "alright"!  

anxieties adhered anent axioms.  

apprehension ascended and ascending all  away awaiting another accompaniment and attitude affluent as approval and acceptance and accordance.  

an acquiescence amenable and anon amicable and anon amiable and anon admirable.  

aces!

muzic to heal

the muzic is healing ... .. .

the soundz ... .. .

the clickz ... .. .

the tempoz ... .. .

the rhythmz ... .. .

the crescendoz ... .. .

the diminuendoz ... .. .

the tapz ... .. .

the slidez ... .. .

the deep bass ... .. .

the wordz ... .. .

the hummmz ... .. .

the nodz ... .. .

the slapz ... .. .

the pluckz ... .. .

all dedicated to You ... .. .