muzic to heal

the muzic is healing ... .. .

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all dedicated to You ... .. .

unrejected

Jurnei, i wrote this song for You.  You mean so much to me.

unrejected

I wanna know that Your love will over whelm me and Your grace is a home to welcome me and not imprison me.

I wanna see You running to me because You’ve missed me. 

You’ve set a place at Your table. You’re still smiling! But I am crying.

I wanna hear that Your forgiveness cost me nothing. You’ve paid my way in. 

Shouts of, “We’ve missed you, it’s been so long". I’ve missed You All.

I wanna feel I’m no more empty filled with acceptance. Enourmous 4’s to hold on tight. 

You hold my hands then show me Yours.

I wanna be who You say I am: Fearfully made and Wonderfully too. 

You are the Potter. I am the clay. A broken vessel.

You take my guilt (I am set free: a new creation). You take my trash, ‘tis no more mine. 

Am I worthy to be Yours? I am.

I am unrejected! I am unrejected! I am unrejected! I am unrejected!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqK4BBKIMhY

balance

Jurnei,
is there a balance between acceptance and rejection?  or is it one or the other?
please don't feel i rejected You.
please don't feel that my wanting to come back to life was rejecting the life i was living with You.
i remember the many many times since transferring back to this 3rd dimension i wanted to bring friends into Your presences.
but did i ever get distracted from "beauty personified in red"?

many were alluring but only one caught my heart.
and now that one has severed the artery.

Jurnei,
did i, why did i make the mistake of letting myself get distracted, get pulled away?  i know the word, "infatuation" is relevant.  but was it a sin?

"No"

then why do i feel punished because of it?

"You are not.  No punishment will over come; come close; compete, to the Truth of where your home already is.  With Us.  Even right now, you are with Us.  Your mistakes aren't with Us, not now, never were, never will be.  And they are not with you.  They don't become you.  You don't become them.  Who We have the blessing to reveal We admire, We approve, We address, We ordain.  We honor.  Always have.  Always Always Always will".

So, Jurnei, You don't disapprove of my mistakes, and many they are?

"Rhetorical question"?

yes.

"We have anointed you in Our presence.  You know.  You KNOW.  Believe what you know.  Just believe what you know".

"We embrace you".

i know.

"Believe it".

i do.

noy

i was gonna ask "why do you love me" jurnei but instead i want to just say "thanks"

you are good to me when i don't expect it.

you are there for me when i'm not ready for it.

you hope the best for me when i feel i don't deserve it.

you surround me in love and love and love.

ONLY YOU

JURNEI

ONLY YOU CAN PRODUCE THE HEALING IN ME.

ONLY YOU CAN SOFTEN MY HARD FEARS.

ONLY YOU CAN BRING SELF ESTEEM FROM SELF PAIN.

ONLY YOU CAN BAPTIZE MY MIND IN REASON.

ONLY YOU CAN SUPPORT MY UNKNOWN FUTURE.

ONLY YOU CAN CAUSE NEW BESTS.

ONLY YOU CAN SHOW ME HOW TO BOW IN TOTAL ADORATION.

ONLY YOU CAN MEMORIZE THE LINES TEARS FLOW DOWN.

ONLY YOU CAN UNDERSTAND MY SHAME AND ERASE IT.

ONLY YOU CAN GIVE ME HOPE.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU CAN FILL MY DREAMS.

ONLY YOU CAN APPROVE MY EFFORTS.

ONLY YOU CAN DISSIPATE MY STORMS.

ONLY YOU CAN BREATHE IN MY LUNGS THE DEPTHS OF BREATH.

ONLY YOU CAN SHINE MY SMAGRIN.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU CAN SHOW ME THE HEIGHTS OF PEACE.

ONLY YOU CAN SHOW ME THE DEPTHS OF JOY.

ONLY YOU CAN FLOAT ME IN FOREVER.

ONLY YOU CAN BETTER ME TO PERFECTION.

ONLY YOU CAN ACCEPT ME IMPERFECT.

ONLY YOU CAN LOVE THE ENTIRETY OF ME.

ONLY YOU CAN DO WHAT ONLY YOU CAN.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU.

ONLY YOU.

good

good

good people

good friends

good healing

good food

good memories

good new

good news

good music

good poetry

good lyrics

good days

good evenings

good conversations

good scripture

good attention

good detail

good forgiveness

good for me

good enough

good

miseu

jurnei,

you know alot of what is going on in me

from around me

because of what is with out me.

this healing is a newer version of healing.

this is going to work.

for me.  

because ... for me ...

"this has never been done before".

i chuckle at that positivity.  he he

i smagrin.  with Your healing, jurnei, help me notice what is being healed for there is so much that needs it.

my head.

my heart.

my soul.

my will.

my aura.

i am a new creation.  these newnesses of me, i trust will be used for the first time, meaning, maybe i never used those before, the way they were supposed to be?  

i am fearfully and wonderfully made.  You confirm that.

i trust You, jurnei.

and thank You, jurnei, for those you are placing in my life right now and forever more.  bless them for their patience and kindness.  

so much, they are.  

this time around is truly "remarkable".