Renewal of who's not there

so Jurnei,

i shake my head in disbelief.
i snicker at the set ups.
i snort for the widening of my eyes.
i slam another victim of my soul.

hope?
figments of disappearing de ja vu.

hope is the simple reminder that Time disagrees with the Now.
the Now over shadows the Not yet New.
the most welcome glee comes from the Never.

i ignore the laughter of their demons by scoffing louder than they.

this testament, of the third, is delayed from my dreams.
dreams of hope.
hope of wishes.
wishes of truth.
truth yet to be distilled.

this de ja vu mimics my horrors.
'tis all so beautiful.
charming.

i must speak the tongues of the Celestial for,
in hearing Them: i am directed.
in hearing Them: i am instructed.
in hearing Them: i am refrained.
in hearing Them: i am zealous.

You are here with me and You are there waiting for me.
my Future is Past Belief.
comfort me Jurnei for another missing moment has escaped my peace.

hummm my Friendz.  hum m m m m m m . . . . . . .