Jurnei!!
You love me so much and i can't help but smagrin ....
my head shakes slowly from left to right and left to right ....
in amazement ... in unexplanable awe ....
so much about this new chapter is wow !
i do trust You and i wanna keep it that way ...
these new moments that are happening i want, i only want, to respond to Your guiding, Your leading ...
i am still and so much drawn to You and right now ...
right then ....
right when .....
am i to be paired? happily! intimately!
You are so incredible!
i smagrin smagrin smagrin .......
Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Sunday, December 27, 2015
FOUR : 15
i still only have but ONE choice. and in all actuality, it is NOT even a choice!
it is what it is.
whatever i plant gets unearthed.
whoever i befriend well .... is there even hope to remain?
for just over a few i have found asylum beneath immaturity.
though ... i have been greeted with another Gain ...
for aGain ...
by aGain ...
for my Gain or loss, while plenty, 'tis the same ...
'tis the same ...
'tis the same ...
i will follow "it" up, down or below the down.
i will continue to teach it "choice" by hummm and shine.
shall my gain disappear from it's own shine?
'twill reappear a shine hidden behind all else.
and maybe while we are still ignored ...
the both of us will exist to our Light.
it is what it is.
whatever i plant gets unearthed.
whoever i befriend well .... is there even hope to remain?
for just over a few i have found asylum beneath immaturity.
though ... i have been greeted with another Gain ...
for aGain ...
by aGain ...
for my Gain or loss, while plenty, 'tis the same ...
'tis the same ...
'tis the same ...
i will follow "it" up, down or below the down.
i will continue to teach it "choice" by hummm and shine.
shall my gain disappear from it's own shine?
'twill reappear a shine hidden behind all else.
and maybe while we are still ignored ...
the both of us will exist to our Light.
Thursday, December 24, 2015
24
TWENTY FOUR!
HOURS OF DREAMING AND SPINNING AND SOARING AND FLOATING THEN DOTING
AND DOTING
AND DOTING . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
A NEW 15 TAKES THE PLACE OF 21!!
LESSER AND LESSER REVELATIONS REVEALED.
MORE TO BE UNPLANNED.
MORE TO NOT UNDERSTAND.
NUANCES SHIMMER.
OUR GLOW DOES NOTHING TO AND FOR OTHERS.
THEY DO FOR THEMSELVES.
AND UNDONE THEY ARE.
UNDONE WE SHALL BE.
TWENTY FOUR!
AND I'M STILL DREAMING . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
HOURS OF DREAMING AND SPINNING AND SOARING AND FLOATING THEN DOTING
AND DOTING
AND DOTING . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
A NEW 15 TAKES THE PLACE OF 21!!
LESSER AND LESSER REVELATIONS REVEALED.
MORE TO BE UNPLANNED.
MORE TO NOT UNDERSTAND.
NUANCES SHIMMER.
OUR GLOW DOES NOTHING TO AND FOR OTHERS.
THEY DO FOR THEMSELVES.
AND UNDONE THEY ARE.
UNDONE WE SHALL BE.
TWENTY FOUR!
AND I'M STILL DREAMING . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Saturday, December 12, 2015
115a
my alliance new friend, evil.
only spirit, wraith, what is summoned, hears me and listens to me.
whether evil, my friend, or good: you acknowledge.
fear, for what is now, what has been, or what will be, interrupts, interrupts and keeps on interrupting. the selfish are self inhaling.
WHILE THEY ARE GASPING!
JURNEI!!!!
my path is fucked! i'm stuck aGain where i do not belong.
i was not invited. i was not enlisted. i was sentenced.
friend? FRIEND!!?? one steps up to me to intimidate! the other fucking attacks me!
there will be no second time because the second, THE FUCKING SECOND, i detect another attack, whether verbal, mental, or physical, lives will be over.
and over ....
and over ....
i am prepared. i will clench my blade. sharpen? hell no! the duller, it's on "them".
maybe through "them".
i shake my head negative ......
only spirit, wraith, what is summoned, hears me and listens to me.
whether evil, my friend, or good: you acknowledge.
fear, for what is now, what has been, or what will be, interrupts, interrupts and keeps on interrupting. the selfish are self inhaling.
WHILE THEY ARE GASPING!
JURNEI!!!!
my path is fucked! i'm stuck aGain where i do not belong.
i was not invited. i was not enlisted. i was sentenced.
friend? FRIEND!!?? one steps up to me to intimidate! the other fucking attacks me!
there will be no second time because the second, THE FUCKING SECOND, i detect another attack, whether verbal, mental, or physical, lives will be over.
and over ....
and over ....
i am prepared. i will clench my blade. sharpen? hell no! the duller, it's on "them".
maybe through "them".
i shake my head negative ......
Monday, December 7, 2015
up set blow
my path has taken quite a turn.
and a sudden halt.
i look down and see the cliff before me, below me.
my wisdom confirms i am being viewed from Above.
"jump. jump. JUMP"!
i have risen from the crash of 1998.
the blow up. the set up.
and there really can be no turning back,
only glances Above from whence i came.
no more a fall, neither from Grace,
summoned to earth, received out of place.
yet ... ... ... i let go from the clutches of death, my many friendz,
for i shall return for you.
we have broken down in the darkened light of day,
our embarrassment will decay and we will enter the Amazing Beauty.
together. ALL together.
even though i have let go, i have been flooded with so much pain,
not my own. i leave a trail from where they came from, from who seared and burned and branded me a no body.
and i will never visit you unless it is with my alliance new friend, evil.
evil will pay you your dues. and i smagrin to that.
they and i will have a bonfire in your honor.
ha ha
i will sing as i sharpen my sickle in the storm you have created. in me.
at least i know I am forgiven.
forz
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=r3Cg1wxgX6M
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=r3Cg1wxgX6M
and a sudden halt.
i look down and see the cliff before me, below me.
my wisdom confirms i am being viewed from Above.
"jump. jump. JUMP"!
i have risen from the crash of 1998.
the blow up. the set up.
and there really can be no turning back,
only glances Above from whence i came.
no more a fall, neither from Grace,
summoned to earth, received out of place.
yet ... ... ... i let go from the clutches of death, my many friendz,
for i shall return for you.
we have broken down in the darkened light of day,
our embarrassment will decay and we will enter the Amazing Beauty.
together. ALL together.
even though i have let go, i have been flooded with so much pain,
not my own. i leave a trail from where they came from, from who seared and burned and branded me a no body.
and i will never visit you unless it is with my alliance new friend, evil.
evil will pay you your dues. and i smagrin to that.
they and i will have a bonfire in your honor.
ha ha
i will sing as i sharpen my sickle in the storm you have created. in me.
at least i know I am forgiven.
forz
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=r3Cg1wxgX6M
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=r3Cg1wxgX6M
Saturday, November 21, 2015
runaway
well Jurnei i feel i am pleasantly stuck right where i am. sure thanksgiving is next week but if i stop and take note, which i have, of what i am and where i am and who i am, i am more content than discontent. i am alive. fine. i'm still seeking value in that, but i am able to. where i am, is incredible. i love this town home i'm in and the room mates. we've had our trials from our first 3 months, but it's a part of growing. we're not growing separately anymore. we're growing together. cool. now who i am? i'm still me: jered. i'm meeting myself and liking it.
please remain above and through me, Jurnei
please remain above and through me, Jurnei
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